This story needs to be told one day. I do feel it has to be spoken out and if anyone manages to recognise themselves I have to confess I was hot all that brave and ignorant to all that as well. I just tried to not show it.
Basically it is a story of me fighting with my daemons. I have already told you that I am quite shy generally and sugaring does put a lot of stress on me.
I was just beginning my sugaring career and eventually ended up in the hotel with my SD. Needless to say we ended up in the bed and I actually had some trouble waking his bro. It all was fine soon, but I got some dry lips and mouth so after we had sex I asked for the champagne. This was my idea of chic then, I suppose. Or that was a way to relax…
Stupid thing, I agree, but I was so novice and so stressed then. Wanted to ask for something stronger, but did not dare to. I still barely drink on the dates, but I was desperate then.
We both planned to go on further and in fact he asked me for the oral with the champagne after he gets some rest. So I knew it was pretty pointless to dress up. Thus I never got properly dressed to get the order. I went for the hotel robe first and then opened the door for the champagne guy.
Well, I screwed with the oral. š¦ I still have not properly figured out how to make it. Any hints BTW? The rest was fine, I did my best to compensate for the failure. Anyway the bottle was gone, I was damn stressed and I wanted the strawberry.
The order was made, but by that time I got too excited and too stressed to think at all. So when the bell rang I simply got up and went for it. Just the way I was.
Poor guy tried to do his best to not fall. He did not say a word. All he managed was to smile looking somewhere in the air. I wish I had a chance to explain myself later, but I never got back to the place.
Honestly I believe he has seen a lot of such things. And quite possibly he was not as shocked as I was when I realised what I have done. I caught some glances in my back when I was leaving next morning, but apart from that this was it for them. I walked out proudly and as if it was planned, but I was shaking for a few days afterwards. Then I thought that at least the guy has something to remember. So be it.
Sigh. I wish I was the bellhop š
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Now thinking about it I am sure he liked it too. But I also think he has such experiences from time to time.
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I’m of course he enjoyed it. š
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I’d say if he was half as happy as I was ashamed thinking about it – let him enjoy the day. š
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Never be ashamed! Revel in your sexiness š
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Erm… Where is the (fine?) line between sexiness and a disgrace?
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There is no disgrace
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You think so? Doing what I did?
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Not at all! I bet he was happy. š
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He certainly was. But what about me?
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Do you feel sad about it?
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I’ve got very mixed feelings. Including being proud too. š
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Please explain to me.
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What exactly?
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What are your mixed feelings?
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I thought it is kind of obvious. On one hand I was flashing naked in front of a stranger. I do not think any reasonable girl will be happy to do so. So I was ashamed and did not enjoy being seen like this,
On the other hand I changed and overcame myself. Being with a man like this in the hotel was stressful and I can say I was good despite my nervousness. And being generally shy, I did not fall unconscious when I realised I am not dressed. This did add to my self-esteem. Which is great and this is what I feel proud of.
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Thank you for the explanation, SJ. I think you handled the situation with sophistication and dignity. Well done!
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Thanks for understanding. I was worrying how this revelation will be accepted.
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No worries. I enjoy our conversations š
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Me too, love. š
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š. Thank you, , SJ.
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